unforgotten memories

I remember sitting under my willow tree on a forest green table

 when life was simpler and happiness was easier to find,

      

 I remember the day when I met my best friend.

We were wearing the same shirt

I remember the smell of the hotel we stayed at in Florida

& the taste of the Pina colada in Jamaica

                                                          

 I remember the rush that I felt the first time we held hands

    & the heaviness i felt from that last text you sent

And I'll always remember you because no one forgets there first love

Blackout

This is who I really am...

I’d rather spend my Friday nights with my family, then at a high school football game

My mom and sisters are my best friends

I love card and board games

I listen to 80s music and Taylor swift  

I like the snow even after Christmas

And I love tradition

I have a want to always be outside doing something adventurous

I want to travel the world and see every part of it

I want to be an elementary school teacher

And I love little kids more than most people

Cooking a baking are my passion, and I’ve always been scared to show it

And I’m sorry because I’m one of those fake people you hate

I’m just scared to show who I really am

I’m weird

I’m not popular incredibly smart or talented

I get angry easily, I have OCD, and get stressed over stupid simple things

I don’t have a way with words

I have a hard time saying what’s on my mind and expressing my feelings

I’m incredibly awkward and can’t seem to have any conversation but simple talk.

But these things, they make me who I am

They make me…

Andie Longson

Music for the heart

Music ignites my soul with fire when I've forgotten how to feel

it speaks words my heart cant say

it shows me what its like to be in love, even though I've never been

its my guide to survival

it fills me with bliss when i'm bleak 

and soothes my soul when its raging 

music is the beat of my heart, the thunder in my head, the words that I've left unsaid, with out it id be dead.

Missing heart

My heart used to be full of joy, hope, and perfect endings 

But now it seems to be getting smaller slowly breaking off piece by piece..
by disappointment 

Should of beens 

& every thought of you.

Now all that seems to be left is my soul asking me where my heart has gone. 

And all I can say is it's been broken too many times I've lost all the pieces to it. 

a survival guide for life

now i know you might think that this is going to tell you how to live and be healthy so you can survive and live as long as possible.  But i'm not, i'm going to tell you how to survive life, loneliness heartache heartbreak and depression. 

step 1- find music that makes you happy, not music that's on the radio not music that your friends like. Music that YOU like. 

step 2- find your comfort food and eat it . ( like pizza, cookie dough, ice cream, chocolate milk, sponge bob mac and cheese ) because you're gonna need it a lot

step 3- make a Netflix account and watch Friends, One tree hill, and How I met your mother 

step 4- repeat step 3 and add step 2

step 5- find someone that makes you happy (pets and stuffed animals work) and talk to them 

step 6- go for a run, even if you hate running just run as fast as you can so you can feel your heart beat and your lungs burn, that way you can remember you are alive

step 7- BREATHE

step 8- look up sloth gifs, they will make you laugh

step 9- remember you are strong, and your life isn't as bad as you sometimes think

repeat 

Beating heart

Being alive is my heart beating in my chest so fast that it hurts 

Being alive is dancing in the rain feeling the rain drop on my skin running slowly and my body shivering fast 

Being alive is the moment right before I held hands with a boy for the first time. That feeling of my heart beating out of my chest 

Maybe  all we need to feel alive is to make our heart pump a little faster so we can feel it. Because sometimes we forget it's there.