Paris syndrome

i went to Paris for the smell of the pastries and bread.. but I could only smell smoke and urine

i went to Paris to fall in love with a nice French man.. but i only got yelled at by French men

i went to Paris to see the Eiffel tower light up at night and to see all the amazing art.. but they never turned on the lights and the art looked the same as it did on Google

but believe me the Eiffel tower was beautiful and the pastries were amazing, but Paris just wasn’t what i was expecting it to be. But somehow i still fell in love...

it was the way the streets were lit up at night

and how everyone wasn’t afraid to express there feelings

it made me believe in love even though I’ve never felt it

it was like a piece of artwork that came to life

Paris wasn’t what i expected, and it had some disappointments but that’s what made me fall in love.

alright, here it is

My name is actually Andrea and if you really knew me you would know that I absolutely hate it 

 And you would know that I'm a little bit awkward and can't keep a conversation going 

You would know why I get emotional when I talk about my mom  

If you really knew me than you would know that I haven't had my first kiss yet, and I'm still afraid of talking to boys 

you would know that I still haven't been able to get over that same boy that didn't even treat me right  

If you really knew me you would know That I'm too obsessed with my weight and my body size,  I know how many calories are in almost every food.. And I know That's not healthy 

If you really knew me you would know that I'm too scared to be myself 

that I'm a girl with a big smile and a big heart but a small self esteem

          and im a sucker for boys with nice smiles and blonde hair

If you really knew me you would know that I I'm still trying to find the "fun" part of high school, but some how don't want it to end  because it haunts me that  I have to take care of myself 

         if you really knew me you would know that i hate feet & im really bad at making decisions

          

         you would know that im a lover of cheese & the outdoors

         you would know that i have a dream to have my own bakery

         if you really knew me you would know that im still trying to find who i am

        you would know that i can get really angry & impaitent 

       and baths and classical music are the only things that clam me down

  

      if you really knew me you would know that im really wierd and im okay with it. 

      if you really knew me than you would know that there is more to me than just a girl with a good         smile.

     


     

unforgotten memories

I remember sitting under my willow tree on a forest green table

 when life was simpler and happiness was easier to find,

      

 I remember the day when I met my best friend.

We were wearing the same shirt

I remember the smell of the hotel we stayed at in Florida

& the taste of the Pina colada in Jamaica

                                                          

 I remember the rush that I felt the first time we held hands

    & the heaviness i felt from that last text you sent

And I'll always remember you because no one forgets there first love

Blackout

This is who I really am...

I’d rather spend my Friday nights with my family, then at a high school football game

My mom and sisters are my best friends

I love card and board games

I listen to 80s music and Taylor swift  

I like the snow even after Christmas

And I love tradition

I have a want to always be outside doing something adventurous

I want to travel the world and see every part of it

I want to be an elementary school teacher

And I love little kids more than most people

Cooking a baking are my passion, and I’ve always been scared to show it

And I’m sorry because I’m one of those fake people you hate

I’m just scared to show who I really am

I’m weird

I’m not popular incredibly smart or talented

I get angry easily, I have OCD, and get stressed over stupid simple things

I don’t have a way with words

I have a hard time saying what’s on my mind and expressing my feelings

I’m incredibly awkward and can’t seem to have any conversation but simple talk.

But these things, they make me who I am

They make me…

Andie Longson

Music for the heart

Music ignites my soul with fire when I've forgotten how to feel

it speaks words my heart cant say

it shows me what its like to be in love, even though I've never been

its my guide to survival

it fills me with bliss when i'm bleak 

and soothes my soul when its raging 

music is the beat of my heart, the thunder in my head, the words that I've left unsaid, with out it id be dead.

Missing heart

My heart used to be full of joy, hope, and perfect endings 

But now it seems to be getting smaller slowly breaking off piece by piece..
by disappointment 

Should of beens 

& every thought of you.

Now all that seems to be left is my soul asking me where my heart has gone. 

And all I can say is it's been broken too many times I've lost all the pieces to it.